Wednesday, September 5, 2007

"Because we love Him..."

Love is a word that all too often is used mistakingly. However theres something so reassuring when it comes from the mouth of an inocent little body. Everyday I get atleast a million "Teacher I love you" from my little kiddos! But today, when they used it, is was different. It was during worship, and we were asking for prayer request. One of the little boys wanted to pray for Jesus. I thought this was "interesting" so i asked him why he wanted to pray for Jesus. Immediately the little girl next to him told me "Because we love Him". Her face was a "duh teacher" face. Like if the answer to the question was obvious. This brought tears to my eyes. As some of you may know, at the beginning, the only correlation that these kids had with Jesus was death. Now they know someone who is a friend and who they've grown to love. It was just amazing to see G-ds work. G-d is so amazing and he loves each of these children so much, that its hard for me not to do the same. Of course their constant hugs everyday help as well =).

In the past couple of days its hit me that this world, was started because of love. Everything revolves around it, and it will end because of love. Love is what made this world exist. Because love, G-d created us. Because of Love, G-d saved us. Because of love, G-d will take us to live with Him. ITS ALL ABOUT LOVE!!!

"For G-d so loved the world, that He gave his one and only Son...."

Saturday, September 1, 2007

What is a Missionary? defines a missionary as:
"a person sent by a church into an area to carry on evangelism or other activities, as educational or hospital work."

Unfortunately society has a "cookie cutter" definition of what a missionary is. I unfortunately fell into that trap. I thought the exact same thing. My "cookie cutter" definition of a missionary was someone who was "perfect" or as they say: "holier than thou". Someone who was constantly happy and couldn't admit that they were having a hard time where they were sent to. Someone who couldn't be in an argument, have a bad day, or maybe just not get along with everyone. Most importantly, that person has a perfect spiritual life.

So just because I don't fit that definition, does it not make me a missionary?

I struggled with that question, until I realized that the answer was no.

Although I do enjoy smiling, seeing the glass half full and love what I do, I also have my hard days. I miss my family, my home, my friends, my life. I miss it all. I also do not always get along with everyone, but I pray and try my hardest to see and love them as G-d does. I unfortunately do have my bad days where everything just seems to fall apart, and/or I just want that day to end. I'm quite hard-headed so I do tend to argue at times. Yes there are also times when I just don't feel like being around anyone. And to top it all off, my spiritual life ISN'T perfect.

I'm just a girl who has eyes for G-d alone and is willing to allow Him to work in and through her. I'm not perfect, but in my weakness, G-ds strength can come through. I may not ever know why i'm here in Saipan, but G-d sure does and I trust Him.

My new defintion of a missionary: A person who loves G-d with all their heart and is willing to put their life in His hands so that He can do what he see fits.

That defintion fits me!