Thursday, August 14, 2008


Hey there,
You're either checking this out because you're bored, or just wondering if i'm ever gonna say goodbye to Saipan...well, i'll tell you this, this missionary chic has moved from tropical paradise, to dorm living. Come check out my new blog "Missionary Life: DA Style" to hear of my new destination and what job the Lord has for me!

Lots of Love to you all!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Little hands in prayer

As a kindergarten teacher, I'm constantly watching little hands doing different things. Sometimes these little hands are holding crayons to create a beautiful masterpiece. Other times, especially if teacher is busy, they are doing some stuff that they probably shouldn't. At these times, i've seen these little hands be used as weapons, climbing instruments, and some are just hanging around inside their clothes (please don't ask me why lol). Today however, with just about 5 mins left of class, I saw a pair of these hands doing something really special. Sure some of the other little hands have done these before, but this time, these little hands did it without being asked to.

His english name is Daniel. He's been in my classroom for about almost 2 weeks. He's my newest addition to the clan. He's my first SDA kindergartener student. He's a little shy, and at the same time, quite demanding. I have a hard time communicating with him because of the language barrier, but he always finds a way of either drawing, or using motions. Well, today, it had been quite an emotional day. I'm still not fully recovered from my trip to Palau, 2 of my girls got in trouble yesterday (decided to give a new hair cut to one of the older girls) and well it felt like today one of the parents wasn't too happy about the punishment. Thankfully, the Lord guided us both and came to an agreeance. Then, our yearbook, which I thought was basically finished, hasn't been returned to us for editing, and there are other corrections that I need to make. Well, it was 5 mins and then my school day would be over. The kids were sitting in the circle finishing up their snacks, when I notice Daniel standing up. I look over to him and see him with his little hands held together, right in front of his face. I wonder if he's ok, but something tells me to just sit still and watch. So I do. I suddenly notice that he is ok, he's just praying. He finishes his prayer, and starts to look around. I call him over and he explains that he lost his sticker. I give him a sticker and he leaves, but doesn't look content with the outcome. Then all of a sudden, I see him get up and dart to his backpack. He opens it, looks at me and gives me an "I know where it is" look. He opens his pencil case, and gets out his sharpener. Apparently, he was looking for his sharpener and not his sticker (lost in translation lol).

This is my little Daniel!

I felt so touched by this experience. Watching this little boy, just turn his only worry over to G-d, made me wonder why I don't do it often enough. Today, the Lord spoke to me through someone else, twice. Thank you Lord for those two people and for always reminding me that you're right there!

So the next time you're around little hands, just stop and see what they do!

Monday, May 12, 2008

The Apple of my Eye!

Its all my fault really. I did it to her. I always tell her the same thing. If it weren't for me, she would be just Raquel, the lovable, G-d fearing, responsible, amazing, intelligent, unique, (list goes on) person that the Lord made her to be. But, because of me, she became all that, AND my mother! (lol)
Way back in the day! (notice the glasses lol)

She's the reason i'm alive, both physically and emotionally. She's the reason I'm a christian and the reason I've learned to depend on G-d. I've loved my mother my entire life and known just what an amazing woman and mother she is, but it wasn't until about 6 years ago that I realized that she wasn't just amazing, she was EXTRAORDINARY. Our family went through some upheaval 6 years back and it feels like we've never been the same again. In some ways, I'm quite thankful for it. See, I was able to find G-d in a closer sense. One of the reasons for that, was my mother.

My mother truly is my rock. She held on to G-d in those tough times, which allowed her to be strong enough for us (my brother and me) to hold on to. Even through our difficult times, she manages to allow others to hold onto her aswell. My mother didn't finish college when she was younger due to her families' insufficient funds, but about 20 years and 2 kids later, she went back to school and became a Medical Assistant, graduating with a 4.0 GPA! She also raised two amazing kids. Now, what I just said and what I'm about to say isn't as a reason to lift myself up, but more as a testament to her amazingness! My brother is graduating this year from high school which he did in 3 years and has managed to finish with a 3.9 GPA. He is a junior deacon at church and has preached twice for our church services. He has probably one of the most compassionate hearts I have ever known. He's a very quiet person when it comes to deep things, but when he talks, people listen. He likes to be the one to have people laughing, and is pretty darn good at it.

My brother Adrian and my mom at his 8th grade graduation.

Me, well, i'm currently a missionary, about to start my 3rd year of college, and there have been many amazing things that have happened in my life like preaching at the GC, and well many others, but I don't like talking about me...Point is, all these things, everything my brother and I am have happened because of my mother and her trust in the Lord.

My mommy and my about 2 years ago

Mami, I want to thank you for being an amazing mother. Funnily enough, I'm 9,000 miles away and still can't seem to do something without your approval. You've always trusted in me and my decisions and I thank you so much for letting me spread my wings and fly (even when it meant not seeing me for a year). Thank you for trusting in G-d and teaching me to do the same. You're my angel on earth and in my heart, I always carry you. If in the future, I become atleast half the mother and woman that you are, I will consider myself the most blessed person on the planet. I love you mami!

Happy Mother's Day and I will be in your arms soon!

Monday, April 21, 2008

Spring Break, and April Update!

Ok, so last you heard from me, I was in Japan on my way to the Philippines! Well, the Philippines was AMAZING! I have no words to describe how great of a trip I had. We shopped and had fun in Manilla for a couple of days. I met lots of people, and so many thought I was Filipina...which I LOVED!!! Then we spent some days with Joeie's family in Pampanga. They were so nice and very hospitable. We then took a trip with them to the 100 Islands in Pangasinan. WOW was that AMAZING! SOOO BEAUTIFUL! Then they decided to take me to Baquio City, which was just so nice. And we had FRESH STRAWBERRRIES!!! They were so yummy! It had been a while since I had some strawberries due to the fact that a small box of them here in Saipan are about $9.oo. Where as there, we got 1 KG for 75 pesos which is just a little less than $2. They were AMAZINGLY yummy! That day I got sick and had a really high fever for quite some time, but thankfully, I had 2 angels with me that spent the entire night watching over me and making sure I was doing good. There was just SOO much from the trip, that truthfully, I am really just briefly going over it because I'd probably end up writing a book if I wrote about it all! There was so much that I learned from this trip about the Filipino culture that has truly amazed me. I feel like i'm so much more connected to my church family back home, and that is exactly the reason why I really wanted to go to the Philippines! I'm so Thankful that the Lord allowed me to experience this! Here are just some pics from the trip, as I came back with about 700+ pics and cannot load them to my computer because its running out of space lol. Hope you enjoy!

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Pre Spring Break

Ok, so tomorrow I will post my blog on my trip to the Philippines. It's taken me quite some time as I have been SUPER busy with school ending =( and lots more! G-d has been blessing me more than I would have ever imagined! I'm definitely his spoiled brat! That is the only way to describe His abundant blessings on my life! So when I came back from the Philippines, I was sick with Strep Throat and was just feeling kinda yucky, but thankfully the Lord gave me the energy and health to continue. Thinking back on April, its sort of felt like a whirlwind that has sped up sooo quickly and its not stopping! I guess as they say, it really is downhill now, which just gives me bittersweet feelings! April's blog will be posted hopefully tomorrow! But lets try and see an overview of Pre-Spring Break:

- We have a new family in town! They are the Staffords and they are AWESOME! Mike is the new Dentist at the clinic. Then theres Andrea, Allen, Andrew and Alyssa. They are such a wonderful family and in the time that i've gotten to know them, i've truly grown to love them quite a lot! The kids are great! Super energetic and just, well, GREAT kids! They were in Africa before coming here, and its just so neat to hear all of their great stories. I'm so glad you're all here!The Staffords (L-R) Allen, Dr. Mike, Shy Andrew, Andrea and Alyssa
The welcoming crew with the Staffords!

- Our class, along with the pre-school, took a fieldtrip to the Saipan Zoo. It was such a great experience! The zoo is very interactive. They let you feed the animals, and even have this cute bear that when you throw a banana to the top of its cage, it climbs up and gets it. It was really a lot of fun to go there and just experience the animals that we had been learning about! My kids truly enjoyed themselves, as did I!

My kiddos at Saipan Zoo. I really liked this sign!

- Before I left to the Philippines, we had our Easter Party. Baskets our here are quite expensive and not very common to see, so I had our kids make their owns baskets! They had a great time making them and even more fun finding their eggs! We had some fun and games that day and they just enjoyed themselves. I had them all dress in eastery colors so that we could take a nice class picture. I had a great time with my kiddos that day!

Our own homemade baskets!

Our Easter Picture! Not the best, but its ok!

I hope you enjoyed the update on my pre spring break. You should expect the Philippines trip as well as the April Blog hopefully tomorrow. I'm not able to upload most of the pictures to my computer yet because there isn't much space left, so I'm having to do it from another computer.

Please keep praying for me. G-d is blessing and guiding. I'm excited to see what He has in store next!

Friday, March 21, 2008

Going to Manilla

I'm right now in Tokyo, about to get on a plane to go to Manila! Tokyo is soooo awesome! Please keep me in your prayers! love u all! I will try and keep you updated as much as i can!


"Smile G-d Loves You!"

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Have you ever....

  • Have you ever felt like you were so happy that it was unfair to the rest of the world?
  • Have you ever felt like you were so sad that you weren't sure how you'd survive?
  • Have you ever felt like you're a piece of a puzzle that fits in so perfectly?
  • Have you ever felt like you're a puzzle piece in the wrong puzzle?
  • Have you ever felt the warm acceptance and love of a stranger?
  • Have you ever felt like the people that you've known for months now have a hard time accepting you but accept a new comer?
  • Have you ever felt like there was so much love in a room that you weren't sure how long the walls were going to stand up?
  • Have you ever felt like there was so much tension in a room, that you wished the walls would cave in?
  • Have you ever felt the innocent love of a child?
  • Have you ever felt the piercing words of others?
  • Have you ever felt: love, joy, happiness, peace, forgiveness, fear, sadness, redemption, excitement, stress, tension, sorrow, loneliness, bliss, aggravation, nervous, frustration, incompetent, outnumbered, incomplete.

Fortunately and Unfortunately, since I've been in Saipan, i have felt all of these and more. As you can see there's been complete opposites but also a lot that have been alike. My emotions and well life have been like a rollercoaster ride. I'm never sure whats coming up next or where the turn is going to take me, whether up or down. I never know if at the end i'm going to feel nauseated or an adrenaline rush. I never know... I haven't had much consistency, if any since i've been here, except for one thing. The only thing in my life that has been constant, is G-d and His love for me. I've had my great days where the children are learning, everyone's getting along, and the sky is BLUE! But i've also had my horrible days where the kids don't want to learn, they're crying about everything, people are doing (what seems like) everything in their power to hurt me or make me feel bad. But, even in both scenarios, i can still see my wonderful G-d. Amazingly enough, it seems like i see His blessings more on yucky days than on great days. I think its because on those yucky days, i need those blessings to survive. This week has been a crazy and emotional week for me and Friday just seemed to be the crown of it all. I found myself, just in the first 2 hours of school, in a closed bathroom, crying my eyes out. But i couldn't stay in there, i had my kids to look after. I walked out and well it seemed like the entire day kept getting worse. However, as i look back, i can't remember when i've gotten that many "I Love You Teacher" and hugs in one day. So although unfortunatey i've got all these weird emotions, I thank G-d for my not so good days, because they allow me to see His blessings easier. I ask for your prayers as i'm going through these things. These last few months are the most emotional ones i'm sure. Bittersweet feelings all around, but i know now to focus on my one constant thing: My G-d!

(Here are some pics of the past two months.)